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Over stimulating keeps you running, Free time congregates over-thinking. You would rather drag the deadweight, Than exist part of the moment. Even when running on empty, Where there’s nothing left to carry.
We’re All Mad Here
No one answers the question: How are humans supposed to feel? Begging the follow-up inquiry: Do all mental states possess illness(es)?
Game Over. Start Over? | Living with Bipolar
Nearing the final level, A coinless Sonic is hit, No lives left to revive him. . . Game Over. Start Over? Yes / No
Running on Empty | Living with Bipolar
Just work your life away, What is the harm in that? Who has time for self-care, When you can make money?
When Borderline Meets a Narcissist
Her memory takes hold, When I never held her. Magnetism drew us together, Palpable at first encounter. Our obstructive accompaniment, Could never survive either’s journey. Objectively knowing? Does nothing for the heart.
Medicated | Living with Bipolar 2
Wonder if I truly need them, Ponder what changes due to them, Fonder each day passes without them, Absconder each night staring at them.
I’m Crazy, Not Stupid | Living with BPD
If only I would’ve been stupid, It would’ve been unable to hide. If therapists could’ve read my mind, The diagnosis would’ve been easy. Those 10 years of decay, My symptoms were right there. . .
My Mind is Under New Management | Living with BPD & Bipolar
You did your job, You protected the child. You’re too good at your job, I’m not a child anymore.
Cruel | Homophobic Trauma Recovery using Buddhism
What a cruel thing to do: Making love look disgusting. Something I had to avoid, At all and every cost. I hated it, Just like you wanted.
The Power of a Correct Diagnosis | Living with BPD
I was misdiagnosed 5 times, Confirming my soul was evil. A single correct diagnosis? Freed me from the delusion. Like flipping a light switch, My pain had a purpose.
Not Forgotten, Hidden | 9 BPD Symptoms: Dissociative Amnesia
“Dissociative amnesia” Was once called: “Repressed memory” Reach in somewhere, Grab something, Stuck someplace, Yank it forward. THAT IS NOT IT.
Content | Living with Bipolar Disorder
[Author’s Note: This is the first time in 10 years I haven’t been in a depressive (or 5% of the time manic) episode.] I forgot how this feels: Content The absence of external stimuli, Coupled with a lack of internal. And yet?
B is for Business | Cluster B Personality Disorders
Borderline is part of “Cluster B” personality disorders, affectionately known as the “Dominant” or “Control” cluster. This is a short write-up, but does not take my typical poetry format. Instead, think of it as a quick and dirty guide to Cluster Bs in the business world. . .
The 5th Time I Was Misdiagnosed | Living with BPD
When it happens 5 times, You’re pretty sure it’s reality. You must just be evil. . . [Disclaimer: This poem DOES NOT mean you shouldn’t go to therapy! In fact, EVERYONE should go to therapy! However, misdiagnosis do happen, and are common for personality disorders. If you are a therapist, please read this poem in…
My College Freshman Crush | 9 BPD Symptoms: Idolization & Devaluation
Brand new to adulthood. Brand new to college. Brand new to bisexuality* When you caught my eye, I was not looking for your friendship. [Alt Title: The one & only time]
Gemela & #1 Amiga | Living with Borderline Personality Disorder
Spanish word meaning: “twin sister” You are like a sister to me. Not “like” a sister, My twin sister. Always on my side, Against anyone who’s not. You always have been.
Apology Poem for F* & T* | BPD Early Signs: Toxic Friendship
I was not a kind friend to you, I should have been. I did like both of you, I just liked the games more. [Disclaimer: This poem is written about how I acted as at 5-10 years old. This poem contains descriptions of early stages of Borderline PD.]
What Could a Young Lesbian Do? | Homophobia Poem
What could I do? What could I say? Tell them we had feelings? We felt the same pain? [Warning: Poetic descriptions of violent homophobia and use of two homophobic slurs.]
Don’t Write It Down | Living with Borderline Personality Disorder
No actual thoughts in my adolescent diaries, Only what happened during my day. All so boring, So sterile. [Warning: Poetry contains BPD thoughts and symptoms.]
A Poem for My Best Friend | Living with Borderline Personality Disorder
Anyone with Borderline knows your love & devotion to a close friend does not prevent negative delusional thoughts and feelings. This poem explores my experiences with my best friend and managing my BPD symptoms caused by childhood trauma.
Killing My Evil Side: Living with Borderline Personality Disorder Poem
I tried to kill my evil side. Most time it would evade clutch, Openly mocking my attempts. Other times. . .
Imagine the Blessed Day | Lesbophobia Childhood Trauma
“I’m not going to get married” “…to a man” was unsaid. Difference it made, unknown when It was first uttered.