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Time’s Up

Over stimulating keeps you running, Free time congregates over-thinking. You would rather drag the deadweight, Than exist part of the moment. Even when running on empty, Where there’s nothing left to carry. I think I’ve written these lines before, That last stanza stole a past title. I try to write happier words, I try to…

We’re All Mad Here

No one answers the question: How are humans supposed to feel? Begging the follow-up inquiry: Do all mental states possess illness(es)? You can’t ever know, You can’t live as them. Maybe some get help, And some others don’t. Thinking so may be a cop-out, Even so doesn’t make it untrue. You are not supposed to…

Game Over. Start Over? | Living with Bipolar

Nearing the final level, A coinless Sonic is hit, No lives left to revive him. . .  Game Over.  Start Over?  Yes / No Losing a game offers a choice: Quit completely or start over? No option to continue what you were doing, One decision with two opposite objectives. You have to decide if trying…

Running on Empty | Living with Bipolar

Just work your life away, What is the harm in that? Who has time for self-care, When you can make money? Nothing compares to the energy of New Years Eve, Everyone collectively takes a breath of fresh air, Watching new possibilities open before their eyes. My view of the holiday contrasted: It signifies surviving another…

When Borderline Meets a Narcissist

Her memory takes hold, When I never held her. Magnetism drew us together, Palpable at first encounter. Our obstructive accompaniment, Could never survive either’s journey. Objectively knowing? Does nothing for the heart. I dreamt about you last night, You asked why I ignored texts, I almost told you the truth: “Borderlines attracts Narcissists,” No words…

Medicated | Living with Bipolar 2

Wonder if I truly need them, Ponder what changes due to them, Fonder each day passes without them, Absconder each night staring at them. If I take the prescription pill, Doesn’t it take what I can have? If I strive for a remedy, Doesn’t it forge a placebo? If I purchase medication, Doesn’t it cost…

I’m Crazy, Not Stupid | Living with BPD

If only I would’ve been stupid,

It would’ve been unable to hide.

If therapists could’ve read my mind,

The diagnosis would’ve been easy.

Those 10 years of decay,

My symptoms were right there. . .

Content | Living with Bipolar Disorder

[Author’s Note: This is the first time in 10 years I haven’t been in a depressive (or 5% of the time manic) episode.]

I forgot how this feels:

Content

The absence of external stimuli,

Coupled with a lack of internal.

And yet?

B is for Business | Cluster B Personality Disorders

Borderline is part of “Cluster B” personality disorders, affectionately known as the “Dominant” or “Control” cluster.

This is a short write-up, but does not take my typical poetry format. Instead, think of it as a quick and dirty guide to Cluster Bs in the business world. . .

The 5th Time I Was Misdiagnosed | Living with BPD

When it happens 5 times,

You’re pretty sure it’s reality.

You must just be evil. . .

[Disclaimer: This poem DOES NOT mean you shouldn’t go to therapy! In fact, EVERYONE should go to therapy!

However, misdiagnosis do happen, and are common for personality disorders. If you are a therapist, please read this poem…

Apology Poem for F* & T* | BPD Early Signs: Toxic Friendship

I was not a kind friend to you,

I should have been.

I did like both of you,

I just liked the games more.

[Disclaimer: This poem is written about how I acted as at 5-10 years old. This poem contains descriptions of early stages of Borderline PD.]

What Could a Young Lesbian Do? | Homophobia Poem

What could I do?

What could I say?

Tell them we had feelings?

We felt the same pain?

[Warning: Poetic descriptions of violent homophobia and use of two homophobic slurs.]